Learning not to make excuses

Hi guys, I'm sorry for the seldom update, but i'll try to make it more weekly than before, alright? lol =p 2nd semester is sure pack with 9am classes..believe me, Im still trying to get use to it X)

anyways, as always in almost every post I have something to focus on. This time, I'm in the mood of saying stuffs about misunderstanding with your friend or friends. Its normal to reach a state of disagreements in something with your friends, that's what they say..each person has his/her own mode of interpretations. Some may blend together in harmony, however for some it would just lead to chaotic arrangements. I have a problem with a good friend of mine. Yeah, I'm pretty tired with this stuff going on every now and then. The fact that both of us are opposite in almost every aspect might just makes us easy to be not only close mates but also temporary "enemies". That's why I decided not to think about it too much as I still have many that I can mingle with. Angry? Its normal to feel angry with your friends in varying degree of course. I was mad at first for some reasons actually but I was thinking there's no use to involve yourself with such negative energy. You know, just move with your life..you lose a good friend, but God will always replace such sad thing with many good things for instance, you get to have more than one good friends. don't you agree? I'm not saying its better to just leave the misunderstanding unsorted but if one's tired with the repeating cool and not cool friendship, what's the point? Plus, I'm not the type of friend who likes to have a friend who's using me or in other words, regard me as a "stepping stone". I think that's why I gave up. The intolerance towards the feelings of being used would just make me draw a distinct boundary to seperate myself from the individuals who would do that to me =)

But I just hope things would just be back to normal. I don't pretty much mind about it though. Just go with the flow. This time I would to restrain myself from making excuses. I would just prefer to listen and explain..rather than adding it up with pointing out the stuffs that my friend/friends did wrong to me.

1st semester exam ends, now the 2nd semester starts!

Hi guys, it has been a while, hasn't it? sorry for the seldom update, as stated previously, i personally think 2nd year really "drains" you your free time..I've many stuffs that i want to do but looks like i only could do some of them. But its okay rather than having no time at all to be spent on your preferred leisure stuffs right?

just finished my exam this afternoon, around 4pm here. Really glad its over now...but I've got little time till the first day of second semester which is NEXT monday -.-"
but its alright, im cool...enjoying the last few days of first semester....here's something for you guys!

(^_^);;;;;;;;;;;;;>> what's this? it's a CATERPILLAR!!! XD

I just don't like this

Let me ask you a question, do you mind if some of your friends would take some chances on you when you're in the middle of SOMETHING important? and i mean really really important!

Perhaps i misunderstood the situation but let say the interpretations i made were correct. I just couldn't explain why certain people would not think of the slightest bit that some would preferred to be left alone during the exam period. I just dont like being used. I know doing a favor is a good thing, but im not sure im capable to do that especially when im gonna sit for a paper which im not confident of. I just dont like the fact that im going to be disturbed during the exam period. Even thinking about it can make me angry. I should control my emotion. Its just unfair when you think about it. Your friends who finished their exam earlier than you would thought of crashing in without thinking that you might heavily affected by such idea. I know its such not a big case but i was feeling angry about it the moment i knew it. I am feeling am taken advantage of? which i totally loathe. oh man~now my revision kinda behind the schedule..sorry for the post X)

She misses me, she misses me not

It has been a while i havent type something in this 'dusty' blog of mine. I still remember when i had my first semester exam last year's january. That was the month i was very active at blogging. Unfortunately, second year has turned me into a busy undergraduate who occasionally wishes that the course would be an easy one to go through...lol

anyways, i think its normal to act weird during exam periods including now. So I tend to feel sentimental almost all the times. As a result i was feeling something about Ellysha. I think i was missing her. But that's fine. There's nothing between both of us. It's all over now. Still, i dont want to deny that i too at times wish we would still be friends. X) silly thing eyh?

Sole undergrad Geologist?

seeing a colleague of mine posting her twitpic somehow made me realised(again!) how lonely I am..as a geologist here. I do have friends but we don't always talk..if we do, the stuffs we talk about are usually work work work...and work. Leisure stuffs? keep on imagining XD or should I say eat own dust azree! tsk tsk tsk!

feeling sad? nyeh im used to it actually...it was hard at first..i even struggled. I even thought of imagining how I would be doing if i were to study in a university where there are at least TWO bruneian students who are doing geology! but I know there's always hikmah about something..in addition "Boleh jadi sesuatu itu kamu benci padahal ianya baik bagimu" which means the things that you totally unlike and wish you would'nt encounter in your life can be actually benefit you =)

So to reframe, what sort of benefits I get? this can be useful if you're a "loner" like me as I am the only Bruneian geologist for my intake here =p

-I have the courage to ask almost anything about work to my lecturers or demonstrators,

-During the sedimentary processes & environment practical, I get to keep all the space on the table to myself. Yes you would see my things here and there on the table, still no one's care ;) ,

-Demonstrators would just occasionally see if you're okay or not with the practical and if you're not just say "no im not okay" and I did that during my last sediments practical as it was super hard and i didnt understand anything at all!

-Rather than depending on your colleagues for things that you dont understand about the lectures practicals etc, you would just have one choice, that is to see your lecturer and BEG him/her to give the answers...kidding =p

so yeah, for the Bruneian students out there, if you're just like me - "Sole" in your course and not good with socialising, don't feel bad =) all the best to those who shall be doing their exams soon. Ours will be on 18th January!

I am so nervous and yet I still so many to cover!!!! HELP? Chill~ Insya Allah! Bittaufik Wannajah!

Finally alone LOL

Do you trust me if I say I am finally alone in my own room after almost 4 weeks?

My siblings came over for 2 weeks and five days...

14th December - 2nd January 2010

It was awesome, didnt expect my siblings to extend their stay till january 2010 ;) at least i wasnt alone right? lol I mean there's hakuna matata accompanying me at the end of 2009 X) hakuna matata = family in my context though

Anyways, I will be facing intense weeks starting from 18th January as I will be sitting for my first semester exam!

Dates of examination :-
18th, 20th, 22nd, 25th & 28th

To be honest the 28th is kinda a bit of a spoiler really :p but owh well, im not alone to have his final paper on 28th though cuz levoi's final paper will be on that day too*yeay HAHA

Talking about exams, Im slacking off actually...the weather is just making me to laze more! yes its awesome to see the snow covered everything here and there but the cold part really annoying at times..wait I should say ALL the time =)

Wait, about the alone part...91 empress road is back to usual again after this afternoon as Iznan's departing for London. Poor mate, he was supposedly to arrive London two days ago actually (5th January) but due to the heavy snow, the coach got canceled and thus, he had to buy a new ticket.

Kisah Cintaku di Old Trafford

Guess what, i have to admit im not such a huge fan of football but yeah, went to Old Trafford with my siblings and few friends. Manchester is great though although its SUPER huge than Liverpool. And to be honest, I didnt set my feet on Manchester other than the train stations =p now im starting to consider of staying over at a mate's house there..perhaps sometime after the exam?

Had a tour around Old Trafford...was feeling kinda lazy and moody since i would just prefer staying at home laze around and do some bits of peices HEHEH! but luckily with my sister's around, dying to have a look around the stadium i forced myself to tag along =p hehe..i was on the verge of cancelling the trip though X) that clearly illustrates how lazy i am that wednesday!

but its worth it..its kinda fun..but the one thing that made it more worth it is the fact that i encountered a PRETTY malaysian girl who was on the same tour group with us. She was accompanied by few of her colleagues though. Didnt realise her till after some time..then i realised some weird energy taking over my body and mind slowly...till i lose control..okay slight control of myself.

Im not a stalker guy but I WAS at old Trafford...I SECRETLY took her picture when she was posing against one of the walls at the stadium..and i have been using her picture as the display picture of my twitter, facebook and msn..super stalkier...but changed my facebook's profile picture though

alright let me continue the remaining bits yeah? there's nothing much happening back then. We did stare at each other for a few secs at the MU store =p but i was acting "jual mahal" so didnt do a thing after that..salah bah..now i feel regret for being such ego-ish guy =p tidak apalah...it was my fault too..i think she purposely let herself alone for quite some time at the store back there just to give me some space perhaps?

what's embarrassing..quite embarrassing I should say is the fact that my big sister told me that her friends were looking and laughing at us...I guess they noticed I always took a glance at their pretty friend eyh? yes..super honest..i cant control myself back then! lain lah..such thing would be super rare X)

Twitter getting crowded!

hi guys,great..i think my twitter getting crowded, its more or less the same with facebook now. Not that I follow many people or i am followed by many. Its just, i think Im getting transparent. I used twitter just to let out few stuffs including some stuffs I want only some to know...sigh. But now that its getting crowded, its just back to basics I guess X) I probably be more active with blogging soon if i want more privacy that is...occasional privacy would be good. You can keep certain things remain "unknown" to others and at the same time you have a good warm place to let everything out - e.g. blog =) yes you tend to type longer than twitter, but some people would find it troublesome to check their friends' blogs individually rather than finding out the updates of each in a single web page. Hence, blogger seems to be the good private place now =)

1 more intense week

My report due yesterday...4pm..submitted it on time..fewh..now to concentrate on other bits of work - Sediments practical book and two structural geology assessments!

the practical book due next friday and one of the struct.geology will be due next wednesday..talking bout the work load...im developing insomnia i think as i dont have time to revise for the exam =.= the assignments are just endless!

Azrin came here tonight to stayover for the weekend..he'll be going back to Leeds on Monday, the same day my siblings coming over too..tomorrow morning will be yumni from Notts...I am so tired after spending few hours on the kitchen to prepare some breakfast and dinner in advanced.

1)Ayam Panggang Lemon
2)Banoffee Pie
3)tuna Shepherd pie

though the last two didnt turn out like I expected they would be but anyways, there can always be a room for improvement right on the second try?

Its been a while

I remember back then..during my first year...blogging is an activity which acts like a homesick-nator for me and one of the things where i can vent out my feelings about things that had happened in my life. Now im on my second year, everything slowly changed...more workloads..hence no time for blogging. I do have the mood to blog every now and then..even thought about what to post about..but didnt have the time to "transcribe" it to my blog...

I have an essay worth 12% due next monday..and a fieldtrip report due next thursday..again its worth 12% like the essay too. I will QC(Quality-check) my essay again before i move on to my report..i seriously need to focus on my report now..at least 10 published literature? thats a load..hopefully i can fetch some geology of spain later tonight..did some grocery shopping with nai just to "fish" out some stuffs...didnt go to the city though..its too far plus it was already late! now its 4.43pm and its already dark outside..not to mention cold and wet~

my room's in a mess too...mannn~I canceled my trip to Leeds next weekend...for a reason though =p will talk about it perhaps next time when i have the mood to type more!